#It's been a week

[andy-clutterbuck]

Rick Grimes - The Ones Who Live

[rheakira]

Yue's State Of Mind

[melancholyandmisfortune]

i am tired

[tblsomedoodles]

My obligatory RvB Restoration doodle

b/c, i'm sorry, but if those three were sitting around a bonfire for even five seconds, Grif would, without a doubt, somehow have marshmallows on him for just such an occasion.

there would also be an approximate 10 minute detour from story time while Simmons and Grif bickered over the proper way to roast said Marshmallows.

also my june speedpaint (link will be up soon)

edit: Speedpaint link

[itsbasil]

There are several more important things he could be doing but thank god he's good enough at multitasking to bother his most favorite special guy

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I have a disease and the only cure is making more miller/roland renders apparently

[peoniesandsmiles]

Just remembered I won't get to see the crows break into the ice court and now I am crying.

[pand0monium]

moodboard

[nighttimenothings]

in that type of mood to punch it out at the gym until i'm sweating and panting and aching all over. arms throbbing in time with my heartbeat, breaths heaving out.

i'd get home to take a shower and my girl would sneak in too. just the two of us under the spray, pressing our foreheads together, just feeling our bodies against one another. we're not doing anything, but the intimacy is everything. it's knowing you're here, that you'll be here on both the good and bad days.

we'll migrate to our bed after we've dried off at some point. damp and flushed and sore, i'd curl up around you, kissing the nape of your neck before we drift off into a well deserved nap.

[diver5ion]

wtf.

[slow-burn-sally]

I think one of the most frustrating things about being neurodivergent, for me anyway, is the inconsistency. My whole life, I've vacillated back and forth between seeing myself as an intelligent, popular, well loved person, and then I'll lose my drivers' license, say something hurtful, forget to pay a bill, or send an email at work to seven other people that completely exposes me as the world's largest moron, and I think "I can't be intelligent. In fact, I must be very stupid." I mean, what else am I supposed to think? All my life, people who do things like this are considered less intelligent, so that's the only template I have.

The thing is, half of me is very clever, hilariously funny, charming, and organized. Have of me is also clumsy, forgetful, socially inept, moody, and the worst, most horrible troll that ever lurked, pustule-covered, under a darkened bridge.

These two people are always inside me, waiting to assert themselves. Just at the moment when I truly believe that I've hacked this AuDHD thing, when I'm really riding high on that wave of success. When I remember everything I'm supposed to, and remember to get gas, and pay the internet bill on time, the Other One pokes it's head up, and then I'm a fucking mess.

Yesterday, I got home from a great day at work, where I'd contributed, and worked well with my team, and correctly answered oh so many questions. Then opened my mail, found out I was being sued for a car accident I'd been involved in due to distracted driving from 2 years ago. I look at the paperwork for roughly 5 minutes, the adrenaline allowing me to actually read it (not possible if I wasn't losing my shit with fear), but it doesn't make any sense, because it's purposefully obtuse legal language. I walk into the kitchen, freaking out silently, intending to test my roommate's chili, (because, when you find out you're being sued, the next thing you should do is eat) and drop the spoon on the floor, causing the tomato sauce to splat across the tiles. I proceed have a total meltdown where I begin sobbing, and yelling at my roommate not to come near me, not to even look at me, while I hyperventilate and spray the floor with disinfectant. I go from Self Contained Adult to Panicky Child in .2 seconds.

I am such a badass, and so in control of everything, and then I'm an irrational mess who sometimes hits herself out of frustration, and who can't add numbers higher than 12 + 12. I have tons of friends, lots of mutuals. I enjoy hobbies. I love my job. I love my roommate. I am absolutely privileged and blessed to live the life I live, but fuck, man, I wish I could just have it stay on the easier path for longer. Why is it always so inconsistent?

[purity-town]

Most likely no update today. I got COVID again and have spent most of the week in bed and sleeping, so I've only been able to work on the page in small chunks.

[happybird16]

In seven days, a silent yearn,

Your absence felt, a gentle burn.

Heartache whispers in time's wake,

A week without you, my soul does ache.

[the-headless-horsedude]

[brighten-the-rainy-day]

Now that there's proof that I actually got dressed today, I can change into pj's, grab a blanket and a cup of herbal tea because this cold refuses to let me live!

[questionable-idea]

didn't read wolfsong for a week and opening it again was like a bus hitting me square in the face (but like in a good way)

get ready for an upcoming avalanche of posts once i finish it

[shallowseeker]

John Winchester crybaby

with mascara tracking down his cheeks